Life Of Agony - how it would be текст песни

I wonder how it would be if my mother was still around

The types of talk

The relationships we could have had

The three of us

Me, you and dad

My mouth went dry

My stomach felt queasy too

So empty and scared

Its all because of you

A dead body that turned out not to be dead

No one understands

Wish I really knew what happened to my mom

Because my family they told me nothing but lies

They figured if they just told me the truth

Id break down and cry

Feel betrayed and hurt

Profoundly insecure

Want to knock ten times on heavens door

Still suffering from old emotional wounds

I was getting worse

Cant depend on them and their lies

Why did see leave?

How did she die?

And when it gets colder outside

Ill be back next year

With that feeling to make me cry

Wanna go visit her grave

Because its been a long, long time

Want to pick a peach rose

And rest it on its side

Say a prayer eventhough I dont believe

And say goodbye

Dont get me wrong

I have a mind to keep me strong

But theres this feeling of not knowing what went wrong

And how shes dead and gone

Dont think anyone thinks

Of you as much as I do